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- 4610 "Nothing! I'm simply sitting here, admiring--"
4611 "What're ya doing, anyway?" I said over again. I didn't know what the hell to say-
4612 -I mean I was embarrassed as hell.
4613 "How 'bout keeping your voice down? I'm simply sitting here--"
4614 "I have to go, anyway," I said--boy, was I nervous! I started putting on my damn
4615 pants in the dark. I could hardly get them on I was so damn nervous. I know more damn
4616 perverts, at schools and all, than anybody you ever met, and they're always being perverty
4617 when I'm around.
4618 "You have to go where?" Mr. Antolini said. He was trying to act very goddam
4619 casual and cool and all, but he wasn't any too goddam cool. Take my word.
4620 "I left my bags and all at the station. I think maybe I'd better go down and get
4621 them. I have all my stuff in them."
4622 "They'll be there in the morning. Now, go back to bed. I'm going to bed myself.
4623 What's the matter with you?"
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4624 "Nothing's the matter, it's just that all my money and stuff's in one of my bags. I'll
4625 be right back. I'll get a cab and be right back," I said. Boy, I was falling all over myself in
4626 the dark. "The thing is, it isn't mine, the money. It's my mother's, and I--"
4627 "Don't be ridiculous, Holden. Get back in that bed. I'm going to bed myself. The
4628 money will be there safe and sound in the morn--"
4629 "No, no kidding. I gotta get going. I really do." I was damn near all dressed
4630 already, except that I couldn't find my tie. I couldn't remember where I'd put my tie. I put
4631 on my jacket and all without it. Old Mr. Antolini was sitting now in the big chair a little
4632 ways away from me, watching me. It was dark and all and I couldn't see him so hot, but I
4633 knew he was watching me, all right. He was still boozing, too. I could see his trusty
4634 highball glass in his hand.
4635 "You're a very, very strange boy."
4636 "I know it," I said. I didn't even look around much for my tie. So I went without it.
4637 "Good-by, sir," I said, "Thanks a lot. No kidding."
4638 He kept walking right behind me when I went to the front door, and when I rang
4639 the elevator bell he stayed in the damn doorway. All he said was that business about my
4640 being a "very, very strange boy" again. Strange, my ass. Then he waited in the doorway
4641 and all till the goddam elevator came. I never waited so long for an elevator in my whole
4642 goddam life. I swear.
4643 I didn't know what the hell to talk about while I was waiting for the elevator, and
4644 he kept standing there, so I said, "I'm gonna start reading some good books. I really am."
4645 I mean you had to say something. It was very embarrassing.
4646 "You grab your bags and scoot right on back here again. I'll leave the door
4647 unlatched."
4648 "Thanks a lot," I said. "G'by!" The elevator was finally there. I got in and went
4649 down. Boy, I was shaking like a madman. I was sweating, too. When something perverty
4650 like that happens, I start sweating like a bastard. That kind of stuff's happened to me
4651 about twenty times since I was a kid. I can't stand it.
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4653 When I got outside, it was just getting light out. It was pretty cold, too, but it felt
4654 good because I was sweating so much.
4655 I didn't know where the hell to go. I didn't want to go to another hotel and spend
4656 all Phoebe's dough. So finally all I did was I walked over to Lexington and took the
4657 subway down to Grand Central. My bags were there and all, and I figured I'd sleep in that
4658 crazy waiting room where all the benches are. So that's what I did. It wasn't too bad for a
4659 while because there weren't many people around and I could stick my feet up. But I don't
4660 feel much like discussing it. It wasn't too nice. Don't ever try it. I mean it. It'll depress
4661 you.
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