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• has_friendship_withThe Narrator's Friend

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  The Narrator shared a deep and sweet friendship with this man, valuing it 'above all sweetness' in his life.

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  one whole year of my friendship, sweet to me above all sweetness of that my life

• experiencedGrief

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  The death of his friend caused the Narrator's heart to be utterly darkened, leading to pervasive sorrow.

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  At this grief my heart was utterly darkened; and whatever I beheld was death

• fled_fromThagaste

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  Overwhelmed by sorrow and the memories associated with his home, the Narrator chose to leave his native country.

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  And yet I fled out of my country; for so should mine eyes less look for him, where they were not wont to see him

• traveled_toCarthage

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  Following his departure from Thagaste, the Narrator made his way to Carthage.

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  And thus from Thagaste, I came to Carthage

• perceived_asDeath

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  The Narrator saw death as a cruel enemy that had robbed him of his beloved friend.

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• confessed_toGod

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  The Narrator indicates his intention to confess his struggles and feelings to God.

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  now is no time to question, but to confess unto Thee

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• believed_inManichaeism

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  The Narrator recounts his past adherence to Manichaeism, including its follies and specific beliefs.

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  I, miserable, believed that more mercy was to be shown to the fruits of the earth than men, for whom they were created.

• lived_throughNine Years of Manichaeism

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  The Narrator spent nine years from his nineteenth to his twenty-eighth, involved in Manichaeism and other worldly pursuits.

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  For this space of nine years (from my nineteenth year to my eight-and-twentieth) we lived seduced and seducing, deceived and deceiving, in divers lusts; openly, by sciences which they call liberal; secretly, with a false-named religion; here proud, there superstitious, every where vain.

• taughtRhetoric

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  During this time, the Narrator taught rhetoric, driven by cupidity but preferring honest scholars.

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  In those years I taught rhetoric, and, overcome by cupidity, made sale of a loquacity to overcome by.

• taught_toHonest Scholars

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  The Narrator taught artifices of rhetoric to honest scholars, though sometimes for the life of the guilty.

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  honest scholars (as they are accounted), and these I, without artifice, taught artifices, not to be practised against the life of the guiltless, though sometimes for the life of the guilty.

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• departed forRome

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  The Narrator secretly left his mother and sailed for Rome.

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• sufferedNarrator's Bodily Sickness

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  Upon arriving in Rome, the Narrator was afflicted by a severe bodily sickness.

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  there was I received by the scourge of bodily sickness

• believed inManichaean Crucifixion Belief

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  The Narrator previously held the Manichaean belief that Christ's crucifixion was merely that of a phantasm, not a true bodily death.

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  For how should He, by the crucifixion of a phantasm, which I believed Him to be?

• associated withManichaeans

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  The Narrator joined himself to the Manichaeans, whom he describes as 'deceiving and deceived holy ones'.

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• joinedThe Elect (Manichaean)

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  The Narrator became united with The Elect, a specific group within the Manichaean sect.

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  was I still united with their Elect.

• despaired of proficiency inManichaeism

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  The Narrator began to lose hope in making progress or finding truth within the Manichaean doctrine.

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  But now despairing to make proficiency in that false doctrine

• thoughtAcademics (Philosophers) were wiser

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  The Narrator began to consider the Academics as more insightful than other philosophers.

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  that those philosophers, whom they call Academics, were wiser than the rest

• believed inManichaean Concept of Evil

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  The Narrator, influenced by Manichaean thought, believed Evil to be a tangible substance.

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  For hence I believed Evil also to be some such kind of substance

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• reposed inCassiacum

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  The narrator and his friends found repose from the 'fever of the world' at Verecundus's country-house, Cassiacum.

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  of the world we reposed in Thee

• was comfortingVerecundus

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  The narrator and his companions offered comfort to Verecundus, who sorrowed over their conversion, within the bounds of their friendship.

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  comforting Verecundus, who sorrowed, as far as friendship permitted, that our conversion was of such sort

• was freed ofRhetoric Professorship

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  The narrator was finally freed from his Rhetoric Professorship, a release he had already anticipated in thought.

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  freed of my Rhetoric Professorship, whereof in thought I was already freed

• retired toVilla (Narrator's)

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  After being freed from his professorship, the narrator retired with his household to the villa for a period of reflection and writing.

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  rejoicing; retiring with all mine to the villa

• readPsalms of David

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  The narrator read the Psalms of David, finding them to be faithful songs and sounds of devotion that kindled his spirit.

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  when I read the Psalms of David

• was aCatechumen

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  The narrator was a Catechumen, a novice in God's love, resting in the villa during his period of spiritual formation.

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  as yet a Catechumen, and a novice in Thy real love

• was angered atManichees

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  The narrator experienced vehement and bitter sorrow, turning to anger, when reflecting on the Manichees' errors.

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  angered at the Manichees

• readFourth Psalm

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  The narrator read the Fourth Psalm during his period of rest, and it profoundly affected him.

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• loved and soughtVanity and Leasing

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  The narrator confessed that for a long time, he loved vanity and sought after leasing, holding these false things as truths.

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  loved vanity, and sought after leasing

• learned to be angry atThe Narrator

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  The narrator learned to be justly angry at himself for his past sins, aiming to avoid future wrongdoing.

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  learned to be angry at myself for things past, that I might not sin in time to come

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